This prayer was birthed from a mother’s pain after a failed attempt to help her child.  In an attempt to understand what happened, she went to her prayer journal to pour out her heart to God.  As she wrote, God began revealing what He was doing in both their lives.  When she came to the end of her journal entry, she realized God had replaced her pain with the peace and joy that surpasses all human understanding.  In my opinion, there is no purer condition of the human heart (Psa. 24:3-5) on this side of heaven than a mother’s (father’s) plea for her child.  God rewarded her with words of praise she otherwise was completely incapable of uttering.  Here is what came forth.  What a mighty God we serve!

I came to You with the heaviest of hearts;
Broken and bruised.
You listened.

In my pain, I pleaded,
“Please make sense of this horror.”
Your tender hand reached down and
Cleared away the invasion of tears that
Filled and blinded my heart. 
You lifted me on high
And began to explain.

If I can understand, I will praise You,
But, if I do not, I will still praise You.
Father, my love and praise is not
Subject to Your performance!
My love and praise for You exists solely
Because of what Jesus did for me at the Cross.

I am Your devoted servant and designed
To praise and worship You now and for
All eternity.  I was made for Your good
Pleasure and I submit to that role and to
You. (Rev. 4:11 KJV; Eph. 1:9)
At times, my flesh may “kick” at this,
But my spirit understands.

One day, I will not only worship You
But I will fully understand the reason You
Created the one and only me.

Today, I see through a glass darkly (faith),
Someday, there will be an exchange. 
I will turn in my faith and You will
Replace it with Your presence and the
Face of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
(1 Cor.13:12)

Then, I will understand.
I can hardly wait!

In Your Name I pray, Amen.